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Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

A couple fans. Mostly "fans". People who can't be bothered to care about anything I do unless it's for their fandom or whatever.

[ grumble. ]

But no, they don't get it. And whenever people say that kind of thing to me it's annoying because they always think that I hate myself for it, or something? I don't need to be cheered up, I just need them to stop trying to "get to know" me.

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

It's probably normal to think that kind of thing. But I know what you mean.

Wish they'd let us out on deck.

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

What, do you want to bask?

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

It's probably quieter.

And also it's nice to look at the ocean.

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

...Yeah, it is.

[ she's quiet for a moment, staring down at her feet. and then she mutters something to herself - or at least, that's presumably what she's doing since she's not making any sound.

and then: ]

Corretto. Have you ever wondered what's wrong with me?

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

...not really.

Or at least, it seems like it's not that different from whatever's wrong with me.

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

You've wondered about that, haven't you?

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

A little. Sometimes I'm not sure if something's wrong with me or if I'm just an underachiever.

Maybe it's just something wrong with my brain where I can't get comfortable around people, even if I want to.

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

I don't think there's anything wrong with that...

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

Well—

...you wouldn't.

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

It's just...people are people. No matter how much you want them not to be, they'll always be people. So...

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

So, people like us will always feel like we're wrong for the world?

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

...

Yes. Until the sea swallows all.

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

You're still waiting for that, huh.

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

Of course. Of course I am. It will happen. Do you think that humanity can hold on forever? Struggle against the tide? Live forever disparaging and trampling the nature they pretend they are not part of? No. There will come a time when this will not be tolerated. And all things return home.

Everything came from the sea. Everything will return to the sea.

[ and now the facetouching is happening. she puts her hand on corretto's cheek, staring intently into her eyes. ]

Corretto. You will, too.

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

[ hjelp ]

Um.

Are you sure?

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

I promise.

[ forehead kiss. ]

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

[ hjelp

she almost manages to bonk moonjelly in the nose with her forehead but narrowly avoids disaster. for now ]

Don't tease me.

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

Do you feel teased?

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

Yes. No. Maybe.

I know you're not making fun of me, but—

[ "but you would rather live in a maintenance closet most of the time" "but i can't articulate anything i want to you for some reason" "but i am crushingly lonely and would rather not get my hopes up" "but I wish you'd do that more" ]

I feel a little like I'm going to die?

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

You are going to die. It's up to you to choose when and how.

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

...

...

[ she doesn't know how to respond to that. the only option is to try and escape this conversation ]

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

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[ wait what the fuck did she just say? ]

Um.

Re: MOONJELLY

[getlonely]

Un?

[ she like, freezes mid-step ]

...yeah?

Re: MOONJELLY

[shorcanado]

I don't...

[ "don't understand what I just said" "don't know what's happening to me" "don't know what to do with my feelings" "don't want you to leave" ]

...want to be here.